MY 2018 Review/ 2019 Resolution

Every year most of us set new year resolutions in hopes of getting ourselves on track. You may make a mental note or physically write them down. It’s said that one of the most popular new year resolutions is to lose weight. Sadly enough more than half of those same people either never starts the resolution or starts the weight loss and never gets close to the finish line for that goal. I remember having yearly discussions with my mom on Dec 31st. We would write down our resolutions and have a toast to a better life. Now this is not to say that setting a new year resolution doesn’t work or that writing it down doesn’t help BUT in my case becoming fixated on the goal became stressful when It didn’t work out according to how I wanted it to. I’m naturally a planner. I will admit I have some control issues. I HATE WHEN SHIT DOESN’T GO MY WAY!! Yes I just had a little kid moment 😂. Some say you get older and wiser, I say with experience comes knowledge. For 2018 I didn’t write any goals down. I knew what I wanted so I took the mental note approach. Heres a breakdown of my 2018 I became an author. In 2016 I created an online therapeutic blog that documented my journey after I decided not to go forth with an abortion. After my son’s first birthday I deleted the blog and soon after began the research process for turning my blog into a book. I decided to go the ebook route. My ebook is available on Amazon. I’ve been told its a good read. Find out why I have FIVE STAR REVIEWS ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Click here to purchase : https://www.amazon.com/Soul-Baring-Decided-Abortion-Memoir-ebook/dp/B07BX7ZMX8/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1534895588&sr=8-1&keywords=soul+baring+I+decided+not+to+have+an+abortion An article I wrote in 2017 was published by BlackMomsBlog.com. It was very special because it was released during American Heart Month. Before birth, my son was diagnosed with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. It is a congenital heart defect. Hypoplastic left heart syndrome (HLHS) is a rare congenital heart defect in which the left side of the heart is severely underdeveloped. It may affect the left ventricle, aorta, aortic valve, or mitral valve. (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoplastic_left_heart_syndrome) Read the article here: http://blackmomsblog.com/when-the-plan-doesnt-go-as-planned-my-story-as-a-first-time-mom/ Earlier in 2018 I wrote to Miracles and Messes sharing me and my son’s story. They posted us on IG in August. From that post it looked like we went viral for a little bit. Many other pages reposted us. Check out the post here: https://www.instagram.com/p/BmQuNn6nNJZ/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=12edg9evcyvej I was prepared to leave my job although a part of me was fretting it. I needed more money and I didn’t get the position I applied for within the company. Literally two days before my last day I found out I was granted another position instead. A day after that my mom found me a sitter that she knew and this woman literally lived a few blocks from my job. Timing is really everything 🙌🏾 2018 was also the year of healing. I had to finally admit to myself that the trauma I experienced being pregnant and everything that took place after my son was born was something I never got over. My sons father attempted to be in our son’s life for a while this year. Unfortunately him being around was good and bad at the same time. I started to relive everything in my mind as if it happened yesterday. He apologized for the pain he caused me however it wasn’t enough. I had to cry it out and learn to forgive myself. I’m not going to lie and tell ya’ll I’m 100% done healing but I’m almost there. My Goal for 2019? Trusting the process! That is all. Did you set any goals for 2019? Let me know in the comment section. Also follow me on social media. All clickable links are at the top